Title: Broken
By: =Tot-Senpai
Warning: Yaoi
Pairing: Xuka x Reix
Copyright:
Reix (c) =KyDragonblade
Xuka (c) =Tot-Senpai

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My hands clutch tight to the fuzzy item in my hands; A sudden pain overcoming me. I did not want to believe that Nobodies could not find love. If the Somebodies are able... Surely the Nobodies has chance. Something pound in my chest but I don't believe it was a heart. Or was it? But Nobodies are not suppose to have hearts. I cry inside and beg to scream but nothing but an emotionless mask is hiding it all beneath.

The said item- a stuffed tiger animal- fell to the ground. My feet carring me as fast and far as they could. Slamming and pounding at the ground as if trying to overcome the pain in my chest. Clouded by unknown beads of water I stopped, placing my hand to a wall and clutching my Organization jacket at my chest. Unable to hold it in I release these unkown waves of water. Letting out a whimpering sob, uncontrolably gasping and selfishness. All I was thining about was of how I felt and the look in my companions eyes said it all.

Are we companions? Friends? Simply not lovers, or could we? I do not understand why this day was so complicated. I have tried everything in my power to understand "Valentines" and "Love" but nothing seemed to get me closer to him. However, I would never give up. I would surely find a way to hold him. To kiss him. Make him mine in time. Or... Fate could be cruel to me and every day I see him happy with someone else. Though seeing him happy is all that matters.

My pain is nothing. I want him to be happy, to see him smile. Laugh. Be free to enjoy life. But im afraid. He's afraid. We both are. Of how it will continue on, of how it might end. I dont want to feel the heartaches any longer. A soft sigh. A heartache? Is that what this is? Slamming my fist repeatedly into the wall I can't help but cry out his name... "Reix! Reix!" I called over and over again as if his magical being would appear before me and take the pain away. My mouth hug open but I could no long speak.

Words could no longer define me. I stare down at the ground, dropping to my knees and soaking myself in my own self pity. Wet, salty beads rolling down my face for the first time. I couldn't believe what I had been reduced too but... I never felt so happy when I am around him. Everything disappears and my world isn't dull. And he is my reason for continuing on living... Maybe that is how it is suppose to be.

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"Happy Valentine's Day", I say to him with a fake smile never will he know only he can make that smile real.

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